I think I've messed up most, if not all, of my asessments for my last year of college. I wonder if I can still go to university. (I didn't exactly fail anything, mostly got Cs, so I guess I'm exaggerating but this is how I feel anyway.) And why do I do this to myself?

Despite failing to change for the better and gotten worse instead, I will still try to be better.

Or else I won't survive.

I admit it's kind of sad because there aren't many positive entries on my DA journal (Was there any ). But I hope this, and any other entries later, will be better.

Though it is partially thanks to the stuff I shouldn't be doing so much of this year* that I've gotten into so much trouble, they're the stuff that inspires me to keep trying to do better despite having failed miserably at it so far. Even through the times when I'm like this: , thinking that it's too late to do anything about anything. Thank you manga!

Can't do a Halloween pic so maybe I'll do a Christmas one this year. I would like to actually finish my work properly and start posting stuff on DA more often.

Will add other Journal bits later. Hopefully at most a month later... After my parents find out about my grades and if I'm still alive.

*I got myself addicted to Katekyoshi Hitman Reborn, Eyeshield 21, Fairy Tail, etc. but they don't even take up so much of the time I've wasted